Sept. 22, 2001
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Overlooked again.

I should be used to it by now. Every time I enter something or do something to be noticed, I never am. Always pushed aside by people who don't deserve it, or have at it their whole life, or payed for it.

I've gotten what, maybe 4 days worth of attention from my peers and teachers out of my 11 year scholastic career? My friends have had about 7 years worth? Damn. I might be exagerating a little, but I doubt it.

I've had to take to extreme measures to get noticed. Briefly turning to Satanism (Didn't work), nearly commiting suicide (That did work), singing German in a flock of close-minded sheep, speaking my mind on things that aren't a big deal in the big sense of things but make others go all apeshit, and other misc. crap.

Never works.

Not even my artwork. My poetry. My writings.

All unnoticable slop.

Well, fuck that. From now on I'm spamming every fucking thing. No longer am I doing the passive advertising. I am going to pummel the shoutbox and chat channels with spammage.

You will notice me. I will make sure of it.